CNY Gift

Tonight at Penny Black, a friend of mine came over to apologise for making me waited for hours at Boatquay the other night. I choose not to accept no matter how hard he tries, not because I am angry with him for being late that night but because I can't accept my friends for toying with other girls' feeling. I have been telling him to make up his mind and make his choice between the 2 but in vain. I know that its totally none of my business. Perhaps its because of J's past which makes me detest guys who do that. Everyone felt that I am petty for not forgiving him after his sincere apologise. I feel like a c**k stucked in the mouth. Even his girlfriend or should I say one of his girlfriends came over and started an argument with me for being unreasonable. What can I say? To tell her I am angry because he is toying with her feeling?? I felt my blood boiling and before I knew it, she gave me a punch right on my face for being unreasonable. Being a boxer and partially drunk, its my basic instinct to retalitate at that very moment I was hit. Both of us ended with a swollen cheek. I felt so sorry about it for 2 reasons, firstly for hurting her and secondly I was the one who sort of created the chance for them to know each other which makes me an accomplice in this relationship between them. I really wish to scream it out at that point of time but I didn't as I don't wanna make thing worse. What if no one choose to believe me and I am in the wrong again for sabotaging their relationship?? I wanted him to settle this himself in a way that no party will be hurt.

Perhaps I should have never poke my nose into it at the first place. Although I treated him as my brother but I can't get over myself for what he has done. Think about it, if someone does this to your sister or to someone you truly love, how would you feel too?? We are all human, what makes you have the right to do that to others??

What an evenful and unforgetable CNY. Received a big present on my cheek and losing a brother. Now I am the bad guy and he is the victim. I am unreasonable, snobish and petty while he is so pitiful. As what people always tell me, if you can't accept it, leave it. Since everyone is standing on his side, I can only choose to leave the entire clan. Well at least I can now get this off my chest knowing that his girlfriend won't be reading my blog again.

This CNY sucks......