Where is the top??

A few years ago, a friend of mine told me this ' when I climb to the top, I hope to see you there..' We haven't been in contact for many years and I really wonder did he vaporise into thin air or is he at the top now?? Come to think of it, where is the top??

Last year when I joined this company, I told myself the same things too. I wanna fly as high as I was in the force. I worked smart and damm hard at the same time, within 10 months I became the first person in the company to ever promote within the shortest period. This year, I got the highest bonus the company offered. Am I at the top yet? I know I am not but where is the top?? The higher I climbed, the fear of falling gets bigger.I am at the point of no return. I am not God, there' a limit to what I can do.

Of cos every employer expects something even better regardless of how well you did last year. The expectation is higher as the position raise. Perhaps what I did last year was consider good being in that position but maintaining the same standard after promotion would be consider what I am expected to perform. One thing for sure I can't descend, but staying put is just as dangerous as climbing. J was my strength in both positive and negative ways last year. Be it good or bad, she indirectly pushed me to excel beyond my limits. If you are reading this J, I am very grateful to you for what I am today. I might just be a nobody in the company if it weren't for you. Whatever you do, I wish you well and friends forever.

As you started to climb, friends get less and enemies get more. Everyone is eyeing for your fall and to shred you apart when you drop into the pit. You feel lonely at times yet have to put up a brave front. You feel like you are walking on a tight rope with lions circling below. Sometimes I wish to throw in the towel and run away. But as the going gets tough, the tough gets going isn't it?? Contradicting......But again life is not all about bread and butter, its more than just that for sure though I don't know what is it yet.