Backstabbed

Someone whom I regarded as a mentor actually backstabbed me today. I've always respect him for his knowledge and his willingness to share with anyone whom is interested to learn. This afternoon, he went to my boss and complained about me working closely with outsider on other research, hinting that I am accepting bribery. I learned that there is no one you can trust at workplace.

Being sandwiched between my boss and my subordinates is really tought. I had to answer for their mistakes and held responsible for everything. How I enjoyed those days when I had my seniors for advice and help..... Today I was tasked to evaluate on one of guys on probation who is almost due for confirmation. I had to feedback on his attitude, knowledge and capability. I gave him quite a good grade but I start to wonder if one day I had to reject someone after the probation period, would I had the heart to do so as I am quite close with my guys. From the company point of view, I would either terminate his service or extend his probation if he is below satisfaction but as a friend I wouldn't wanna to take his job away.....

As for those people on top whom wanna step on me,I am not gonna be beaten by you guys. You can try your best to backstab me or find fault with me but I would never lost out. No longer am I going to be easily pushed around. I will do all I can to obtain the post of Senior Engineer in 3 years time. I've seen some engineers who has been push around and totally lost their pride. They have accepted that they are weak and show no signs to fight for what they deserve.. Perhaps you guys can do that to them but defintely not to me. I might not be as knowledgable as you guys but I am smart and defintely cunning if I want to be. I came from a place call 'Living Hell' where only the toughest survive and walked out in one piece.