Show me the power

Just ended my training on the sandbag. The wounds on my knuckles opened up again. I couldn't feel the power being delivered to the sandbag no matter how hard I gave. What's wrong with me?? I can feel that I am weaker than the past physically or mentally.

Last evening I attended a colleague's wedding. It was a malay wedding held in the community centre. I always treat her like my younger sister though I scolded her alot at work but we still maintain a good relationship. Met up with some former colleagues at the dinner, we chatted about our work and lives. I feel that everyone had moved on to a new platform while I am not. Perhaps I should try out as a service engineer too.... My boss sat next table to me but I pretend not to see him at the dinner. I always had this habbit of avoiding my boss outside work. Wonder if he is pissed by that??

I feel so tired...... Tired of work, tired of life, tired of being me......