27 years old

Haiz..turning 27 in a couples of hour time. Last year this time, I was at Genting with J. It was the best birthday I had ever spent. Guess I will rememeber it for as long as I live. She told me she was my present. Maybe she forgot to tell me about the expiry date or maybe she did in a way or another but I didnt get it.....

From last birthday till now, I've to admit that I've changed alot. From my character to temper to thinking.... Along the way, I lost some and I gained some. I feel that I lost more than I gained. But maybe if someone else were to judge, I might seems to gain more than what I lost. Its almost quite impossible to achieve where I am now within such a short period, I am surprise too. But to me, J mean more than anything else in this world. Losing her is as good as losing everything. Nothing else matters since the day she left..... Although I am considered doing very well with my career, I seriously don't feel a thing about it at all. I am grateful for the opportunity my boss has given me and I did my best not to disappoint him. But there's no goal in my life anymore, I just live each day as it comes. I lost the ability to communicate with others since last year. I don't wish to have anyone entering my life or entering into other's life. Just wanna be an island by myself.... I could list down lots of friends in the past but now maybe only a handful maybe none...

My birthday wish?? I wish that J will always be happy, be loved and care for. May all the worries be away from her. Lastly....to see her again