Finally time to let it all out

Finally the day had come for me to say this to my boss. 'I quit...' To myself, I felt that I have not let anyone down. I did what I was suppose to do. No one wanna be a loner or a public enemy neither me. Its never easy managing people, especially 19 of them. If I am too friendly, I can't get the job done and I get reprimanded by my boss. If I am strict with them, I become the public enemy. I had to answer for their mistakes and it directly affect my performance.

I haven't had a good rest for a long time. Even if I am at home, my mind is all about work. I had to think about the problem, I had to do planning and forcasting.... Every night I think about work while lying on my bed, I think about work the first thing I woke up. Even with the attractive pay of 4k, I had to surrender. It used to be a way for me to forget about J by concentrating on work. I did all the thinking, planning and even problem solving yet I am not being appreciated by my EAs. To them, my job is just to sit in office, check some mails, attend meetings and do reports. If given a choice, i rather be working with equipments than to crack my brain and being stressed in the office.

Nobody understand.......