Where are you.......

It been almost a year since I started this blog. I don't know who are reading the blogs but all along I hope its a way I can communicate with J. I really don't know what to do this time. This is a career I have been working hard for but end up I had no choice but to leave. Where are you J? I really need you at this moment. I am really stressed up, should I stay on and make things better or should I just leave everything behind and start afresh elsewhere? If only you were here...... At least no matter how hard it is at work, I will stay on and overcome it. But now, I have lost all my fighting spirit....