A simple frog story

Been working 14 hours straight for the past 2 days. Knock off at 5.30pm today and head straight home for a nice dinner and sleep. Maybe its due to stress, even when I am sleeping, I dreamt of work and all the datas. Didn't really get to have a good rest....

Feels so tired physically but just can't get back to sleep.... Quite some time ago, I talked about sales engineer in my blog. I mentioned that sales engineer are just salesman selling engineering products. They can't really be consider as engineer, perhaps I was too harsh on my comment. I come in contact with alot of sales engineer. I would say most of them have little or no knowledge of the product they are selling. But one of them changed my thinking or at least let me know that not all sales engineer are of what I thought. Cheryl, my vendor was very much different from the other sales engineer I had came across in the past. Not only was she sincere, at the same time she possess great knowledge of the product she was handling.

As we were chatting today, she told me the difficulties of being a sales and application engineer. Firstly is stress over meetig the sales quota then is trying to treat her customers as friends but people always have the impression that she is fake. To my surprise, she told me that sometimes she feel boring as she has not much friends. which is totally opposite from my thinking. I used to thought that being a sales engineer you get to move around different industries and meeting alot of people, therefore widening the circle of contacts.

Recently I was being offered the position of sales and application engineer but after hearing her side of story, I really wonder if I should take up the challenge. One thing for sure, there is no turning back once I choose to leave. Even if I have any regrets, I have to bite the bullet and live with it. Although its still in the engineering line but end of the day its about sales. Somehow its seems to be demotion for me to go into this line. From the role of a buyer to the role of the seller.

Few days ago as I mentioned about to my resignation to one of my assistants, she actually threaten to resign if I choose to leave.... Hope that she was just kidding with me. Everone goes through changes in life. Like it or not, nothing in this world stay forever, not even your love ones. Adapting changes, you will survive, rejecting changes, you will be be thrown behind.

The best analogy to my situation would be...... a tapole swimming happily in a small puddle of water used to think that it owns the world . As it grows into a frog and slowly surface out of the water, it realise that actually the world is so big outside and the existence of the puddle of water doesn't mean a thing to the world. So now the frog had to move on to find a place of its own.