Where is the ending??

Sight... it's ony Monday and I knocked off at 12am.... This afternoon is the 4th time I talked to my boss about my resignation. Still the same reply from him, to help him till end of the year and he will discuss with me again next time....

After hearing about J's marriage, I really lost all fighting spirit. Didn't really wanna do much today but still have to keep things moving. I still have to be responsible for the people under me and the people above me. Can't possibly let my personal problems affect everyone's work. Dragged myself to analysis some datas and give direction on next test. Tried very hard to control my temper and keep calm throughout the day.

Only wanna stay drunk every minute of my life and escape from reality.

There is an executives' dinner tomorrow evening, told my boss that I don't feel like going but he still want me to be there.... Another boring evening tomorrow entertaining the managers and VP.