Baden again

MBO finally over... Got a grade B, though its below my expectation but it would certainly make me work harder on next month MBO....

Met CT for dinner at Baden this evening. Though we agreed not to mention any unhappy stuffs but still we end up talking about our relationship or rather our thinking about relationship... which leads to J. Back to the same question again. Why do I love J so much and is there really true love in this world?? She feels that maybe the reason why I am clinging on still is because I am not in possession of her. Perhaps if we were together from then till now, I would not cherish her as much as I do now. Well I do agree that all human only learn to cherish after they lost. But between J and me... I guess its only for her to judge how I treat her or how I feel for her when we were together till now. CT do not believe that there is really true love in this world. Everything should have an expiry date be it product or feeling. Just like what Guns & Roses says 'Nothing last forever, even cold November rain...' She feel that its only good to be faithful to relationship unless you met someone who is equally truthful to you. That leads to what I always said about sweet talk. There is a hidden sentence behind every 'I love you'. When most people said that, it actually mean ' I love you.. provided that you love me too, if you leave me, I will hate you..'

Just like CT, I wanted to leave Sg too if given a chance. Now that I am learning Japanese, I hope that one day I can stay in Japan for a period too. The culture and the environment is simply irresistable. CT suggested going over for a year or two, only then will we be able to really pick up the language and we can teach English to earn a living too just like what the Japanese are doing here. I guess its easy for me to put everything behind and move over anything whereas for her, its not as simple as that.

Hey CT, maybe someday I would live your dream for you.. haha