Follow your heart??

I always envy CT for having such a wonderful marriage but recently after getting to know more about her did I feel that things weren't what I supposed to be. I don't know the whole story but I guess what I can do as a friend is to provide a listening ear than probing further. Afterall she has been a paitent listener whenever I need someone to talk to.

Some people jumped into another relationship after a failed relationship without time to heal the pain and only after marriage did they realised that the one next to them weren't who they really need. Only after a few years or even more than that do they realise what they really need. Is it just someone who love you more than you love the other party??? Love and being loved, which is more important??

A few days back, J told me that she doesn't wanna hurt another person anymore..... I know that she is in a dilemma now but I didn't want her to be unhappy or troubled over anything so I guess the only thing I can do for her is to step out....CT asked me why do I still love J so much after so long and we weren't really together for long... I didn't know how to answer her... Told her that I will be going through cold turkey from Monday onwards..... I totally agree with what CT told me the other day '往往让你笑的人也是让你哭的人。。‘

Meeting CT for dinner next week but we agreed not to talked about any unhappy stuff on that day. Just hope to spend a day in peace and enjoy the dinner.... At times what we want and what turn out to be might be totally different but do we have the courage to change it or do we accept it for making everyone around happy except ourself??

Sigh... back to company in 3 hours times... when do I get to rest???