Let go....

I read a comment from an annoymous which seems obvious to anyone its from J. However something makes me refuse to be believe it was actually posted by her. I don't know what is it and I am not sure why... The time it was posted doesn't seems logic and the way it was phased was different from the way she used to sms me the in the past I have a habbit of reading into the ways different people phase their sentences. From the way they write I can pick up some unique points and even their feeling at that time. Even when CT left a comment as annoymous a few days back I could tell its from her. Perhaps I am still in the denial state after so long. I read it over and over again... Maybe I can come out with thousands of reasons to lie to myself that it wasn't from her but the truth is she had left....

J, if that was really posted by you and really what you want. As I had said it to you before, I'll say it once again, 'I've moved on...' I don't know where I can move on to. But as long as it can make you feel peace at heart knowing that I have moved on, your wish is granted.... Don't ask me why am I always treating you so good despite how deep you had hurt me. There's only one answer ' Because you are who you are....'

As children bring their broken toys for us to mend, I brought my broken heart to God. I stood there helping with ways of my own. After some time, I snatched back my broken heart and cried ' What took you so long?' 'My son', God said, ' You never let go for me to mend it..'

Felt so lost today after reading the comment. Wanted to call CT out for coffee but she is not feeling well.. All my plans for the day were ruined. Maybe I should just escape from reality again.