Letting go...

Woke up after 4 hours of sleep, having a bad headache...... Took 5 panadol and a cold shower... While I was sleeping just now, I could hear the sound of Soprano Sax playing.... How I missed those days in the band. Its been so many years since I stopped playing Saxophone. Those days, I had no worries and music was everything to me. From Military band, to brass band to stage band, everyday I will be moving around with my Alto. Sax. Perhaps I was born in the wrong place at the wrong time. Back then, everyone said that you can't survive on music in Singapore. Wonder what would my life be if dad didn't declare bankrupt and I could go to Vernice as planned at the age of 16.... Look on the bright side, maybe I won't have gone through so much and became stronger. I would just be a rich spoiled brat who won't understand about life. Heard a good news today, Phantom of the Opera is returning to Singapore next year. I missed it when they were performing here almost 10 years back. But would I be able to find anyone to watched with me??? Almost all my friends are not into opera, I guess I would either have to watch it alone or miss it. (Hey anyone reading my blog who are interested please let me know.) Nope!!! I will not miss it again this time, I would rather watch alone than to miss it.

Come to think of it, why did I go back to office today?? I will be out of this company in no time so why bother about such thing??? Is it due to my habbit of not letting go?? I could have just told the engineer that I won't be back, anything contact my assistant. But I will not feel at ease if I don't see the data personally. Guess its time to slowly let go....... Where do I go after this??? Maybe I should take the challenge and go into running a pub..... All these while I don't step into any bar counter or even sit at bar counter because it reminds me of J..... Back in SL, I would always sit at the bar counter watching her then slowly I would help her with some light washing behind the bar counter during closing...... Dammit, why did I mention her again.......