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Took a short break before I start writing my blog again this month. I guess alot of people must have stopped visiting my blog thinking that I had stopped writing for good perhaps so does J... Maybe its a good thing this way....

Just like Jun-Hyung in 'Sad love story', I too feel that to love a person is not just about being with her. Its about giving her happiness and seeing her living happily. No matter how much I yearn to talk to her, no matter how much I wish to hold her hand again, to pass her the little love notes.... I can't. Knowing that she has found the man she love, living well and getting ready for marriage....there is nothing more I can ask for in this life. Perhaps in her heart, I am only a passerby of her life, nothing worth to remember. All these while, I can only see her from a distance every now and then. It does hurt seeing her in someone's arm but its all worth it as long as I know she is doing well. I walked passed her countless time but never had the courage to even stop and say hi....

I think the last thing I can do to make her feel better would be to let her believed I had moved on and got over it.... It really takes alot to lie to someone whom you love deeply that you had moved on and the feeling towards her is gone.... But if it will make her feel better, perhaps I should... To tell her I had long forgotten about our past, I had found someone new, I am very happy with my life now...