Truth or Lies

They say if you love someone, you should never lie to her but is the truth really what people wanna hear or it that what can make your love ones happy? Today is the first time I lied to J, perhaps I should call it a white lie. Between telling the truth and lie, I guess it better for her this way. At least she won't be sad or troubled... I always believe that to love someone is not to possess her but to give her happiness. If I am not the one who can give her happiness but someone else I should let her go... Though I am sure I can do it but I am not what her heart want at this moment or maybe even in the future...

I really wish to see her again but I am afraid I would not bear to leave if I see her again. J, after watching over you for so long, I guess you don't need me to be around anymore. Your career is starting to pick up and so is your love life. My existence is redundant now, promise me you will never shed a tear of sadness and be strong. Wherever I am, I will love you and think of you. Remember you are not being selfish or unfair to me. Time is not a factor, neither is the promise you can't give. Even if we were back together, I don't need any promise from you to stay with me or love me forever. I just wanna do my best to give you happiness. J's smile is the most beautiful smile in the world like I always tell you. I will do whatever just to make you smile...