Counting down...

2 more days to JLPT4, feeling real sick today. I really wish to bang my head against the wall. Really feel like giving up... Had 4 cans of redbull and a slab of panadol but still having a very bad headache... I really don't think I can pass the test. I always feel I am capable of everything I set my mind to do but this time I really can't do it. No matter how hard I study, it just won't get into my mind.

Promised CT I will take the test but I believe I will still flunk the test badly. Today is the first day I quit smoking, the temptation to smoke is very great but since I already stopped for more than 12 hours, I should press on. I am sure I can do it.... if I still survive...

Ah Guan called me today to meet up for coffee with WL but I declined. Not because I am still angry with WL but it just feel strange as we hadn't been talking for a long time after that incident and I don't wanna be in places that I would smoke like sitting at coffeeshop. Hey WL, I promise I will call you out for coffee once I am sure I quit smoking entirely. Like you say, we are brothers and you are also my mum's godson. No matter what happens, we are brothers forever. Since when do I really get angry with you over anything.