To the hell with Christmas

Its Christmas and here I am alone.... Couple of hours ago, I was dressed up and ready to go partying then I received an Christmas greeting from her... Cancelled my outing and stayed at home trying to get myself drunk with Merlot. Countless time I had told myself to walk out of it but did I??? There she is starting a new life in someone else arms while I am still right here waiting like a fool.... Am I drunk yet or am I still sober??? My eyes were flooded with tears, yes I cried... for a long time, I hid my feeling that even I though I got over....

Sorry J, I still love you....