14th Jan'07

Its been months since I last had any contact with J... Everytime I writes a mail to her, I delete without the courage to send. No matter how much I still love her or miss her, I had to let go... She is getting married this year, happiness is right in front of her and who am I to stand in her way?? Maybe CT is right, we loved someone but we had to move on....

These few weeks I have been out partying with Ken and Kieth at JB every weekend. I thought that I really enjoy but the truth is I am just escaping from reality. I have even lost my passion in work. It used to be able to keep me occupied and make me forget everything including time but now my heart is never at work. Been looking through my resignation letter a few times today. I moved the cursor to the 'print' icon wondering if I should print it and pass to my boss tomorrow.... I feel very sorry to leave as he had given me so much and it seems very selfish for me to leave at this point of time when he needed me. To be honest, with a diploma it is almost impossible to get another job of this position and this salary but I guess at times money is not everything.

Finally my car has reached the port, will be able to collect after a week or two after fitting the body kit and some accessories. I should be feeling very excited about it but I don't feel a thing at all. Perhaps she isn't around.... My first passenger??? Well got to be CT I guess, she is the one whom encourage me to buy Honda Civic 1.8 and also the one whom told me to choose white. Though we had only known each other for a short period and hardly in contact but maybe wehave a lot in common or rather in the same shit we seems to be able to click well.