Church Mouse

This is one of the worst period of my life... All the bad things seems to come together... I had been sick since early this week, I reached the bottle-neck of my career and worst of all, for the first time in my life, I am left with 30 buck to get by for the rest of the month... Since I started working, never before in my life was I so broke... Can't believe that I am earning more than 4k a month and now I end up in this state.

I have been looking at the same report for 2 days yet not being able to write a single thing. Talked to my boss about it hoping to get some help from him but all he said to me was to take some time to do long term planning and he is sure I am able to come out with something. Sigh... Its as good as not getting any help..... Tomorrow and sunday is my last chance of coming up with something for Monday's MBO. But even if I managed to get by this month, what about next month or the month after next...... Perhaps I should start to see a bigger picture to come up with some long term goals and objectives for my group or I should start looking for another job. I feel that I am really not suitable to be in the management. I still prefer being an engineer assistant doing more technical stuff... Everyone looks forward to promotion and pay rise but the price to pay for is defintely high. Higher post and pay comes with higher resposibilities and workload.

I did my sum well before buying my car, until now I still cannot figure out what went wrong. After settling my balance a few days back, I realised that I am left with nothing but 30 buck. Till now, I still don't know where did all the money went to.... Only enough for a cup of coffee everyday and nothing more....