Laws of Power

Lunar New Year is finally over.... For the first time after so many years, I didn't gamble during this period nor did I really drink. Other than the 2 official public holidays, I spent the rest of Lunar New Year at work. I don't really feel it this year. Maybe things weren't going smooth for me to have the mood.....

I had always abide the laws of power for so many years and just once I let my guard off, I am caught with my pants down. I can see it as a good thing or a bad thing. The good thing is I am clear of the situation at work now and able to plan with clear mind, the bad thing is till today then I learn how bad am I at management. With a mind to leave this job and start afresh else where initially but now that I am faced with so many problems had made me stay. Perhaps I am really very stubborn, facing with so much problems and pressure from the top to cut down on budget, I find it even more challenging to stay on. When I first joined this group, I watched my seniors left one after the other. I wanted to leave at that time too but something just made me stay on, maybe its my stubborness or interest. Day by day, I overcome each and every problem and watch the group grew stronger and stronger. Now that I am sitting on top of the group, I feel it going downhill again. Its even more tough than the past to bring it back to the top again as things has changed. Time is an issue now, technology has changed, the people working for me has changed.... But nothing is going to bring me or the group down. Till the last man left standing, I will not give up. Even if everyone turns their back on me, I will uphold the group....