Numb...

I wonder if being a workaholic makes me numb to all feelings or am I numb to all feelings which makes me a workaholic. Grandpa has been at the border of life and death for more than a week. Everytime I visit him at the hospital, I see more and more tubes connected. My aunties and my dad are at the hospital everyday round the clock. His kidney failed, his liver infected, his main arteries are blocked and black spots suspected to be cancer cells are found in his lungs. The doctor says there is nothing more that can be done, right now its only his will-power that is keeping him alive. No matter how we talked to him, he is still unconsicious. Last sunday, he finally opened his eyes but wasn't able to move. We brought grandma to se him at the hospital and I saw tears in his eye. I guess she is the main reason that is keeping him alive but grandma doesn't seems to recognise him as she is slowly losing her memory. At times she can recall things that happen years ago but at time she behave like a kid. Grandma had been in and out of hospital for the past few years and everyone thought that she would leave before grandpa but now it seems to be the other way. If grandma had passd away long before him, he would have given up long ago. Not long after seeing grandma, he was unconscious again. Everyone was by his bed crying while I stood there without any feelings. Not that I don't feel for him but when I see him in this condition, I feel that its better for him to end the sufferings. This evening I received a call from my brother informing me that grandma was also admitted to the hospital. Grandpa staying at 6th floor while grandma in 8th floor. Is this what true love is all about? I always feel that the people of the older generation are not romantic but actually their love was far beyond the sweet talks....

While I was driving along PIE, I saw the biggest and brightest moon I had ever seen. It was so close that I thought its gong to drop and crush on me. It look at least 5 times bigger than the usual moon. I wonder if somewhere at the other part of Singapore, are you looking at the moon just like me...