16th June 2007

Busy busy busy... that how I would describe my life nowadays.... So busy that I can't even spare the time to write my blog everyday like the past. Since I have the time today, I am going to give it all I have. Please be patient with me dear readers or rather 'aunt agony' hee...hee....

I have been talking about resiging for a long time and due to even more 'shit' being passed to me, the more I feel like leaving. I finally understand that rumours spread like fire in the office. One weekends when I was resting at my desk after spending the entire day in the cleanroom, one of the heads in the East plant came to me and ask me if I knew of anything he don't know. What the hell is this I though to myself. I told him I don't understand what he was trying to ask and he sort of feel like I am trying to act innocent. I was so angry that I told him if he is suspecting me of anything, I might as well resign now. The next day, everyone was asking me if I had resigned, there were even some to approached my boss to asked about it and some even asked me through emails.

Yesterday as I was discussing with a colleague from another department, a lady walked to my table and asked 'Excuse me, are you from TEG?' Before I was able to answer, my colleague answered for me ' He is not from TEG, he is the boss of TEG.' Boss?? It seems to be nice to be called the boss but basically I am just someone who bear the responsibilities and take the blame if something goes wrong in my department. It had been a tired but fruitful month, been running between both plants with so many equipments down and doing appraisal for my men .. er..ok and lady.

A few weeks ago as I was at my desk, my SVP walked behind me and gave me a massage on my shoulder. This is the second time he did so, first time when I first promoted to engineer and this time for developing a application recipe that even our Japan side wasn't able to do so. My deputy MD even gave me a 'A' for the MBO this month due to this recipe. My boss was very proud of this as this is the second time I developed a receipe that even Japan side wasn't able to do so but inside my heart, I am worried about it. In fact this recipe was recreated within a very short time over the weekend due to urgent request. I have a feeling that he will be arranging me for this month Technicial Discussion Conference to present about this recipe like the previous time. Sigh...

Woke up very early today though I wasn't working. Washed my car and planning to have a haircut later follow by a wedding dinner to attend tonight. Over the past few years, more and more of my peers in Airforce are married but equal amount are divorcing. Most people in Airforce are married not because they are ready to do so but because the management in Airforce 'planned' so. They are married because they are deployed to oversea for a few years and those who are attached will get married before going so that that can bring their spouse along. By spending their lives together oversea, they start to find that they are actually not suitable for each other or they are not mentally prepared to be married which ended up divorcing the moment they are back.

Damm it, just received a call from my old time buddy that his car can't start and I have to rush down to buy battery for him now......