Cross-Junction

Life is all about choice, it can be as small as deciding on what to wear, eat, drink ..... it can also be deciding on which school to study, what course to take...... follow by where to work, what to work.....

I have always been lucky at work, since my days in the air-force till now in this company.... I am always appreciated and recognised for my hard work. Especially now.... for a diploma holder to hold an engineer position in this company within less than 2 years was almost impossible but I did it. Being able to draw 4-5k a month, I can consider to be living quite a comfortable life but this just doesn't seem to be what I want. I used to dreamt of owning a business, maybe not a billionaire but at least a millionaire. I told myself in the past that I would never accept being an employer for the rest of my life... Recently I started hunting for job again, I don't know the reason for finding another job too. Basically none of the jobs I applied offer me higher salary than my current but still I applied without knowing why..... Maybe I can't find any job satisfaction nowadays...

A few days ago, my vendor whom happened to know that I am planning to leave offered me a job. He invested in a company 2 years back and now he is planning to expand this company. Frankly speaking, if it were to be service engineer or application engineer position, I would accept it without thinking as he has always been my idol. He was born poor but now a multi-millionaire, in his 30 years of business life, he almost went bankrupt a few times but still he managed to pick up time and time again. He wanted me to work in his company as a sales person. I have never had any sales experience in my life, since my first job, it has always been very technical. I remember when I was 13, I tried to do door-to-door selling of greeting cards and I end up selling not even one.....

No matter how good a company account department is, how good the production department is, how good the HR department is, it all depends on the company sales department to determine the compnay growth. I understand about this all along but never had the courage to take the first step to go into sales all this while. This is a step where there is no turning back if I were to take..... If I failed, I can never return to my current job or even find a job that match my current salary... but if I don't do it, I might regret in future..... Damn it.... I am really lost now........ Maybe I have been so comfortable that I lost the courage to make changes in life, just like a warrior who has lost the courage to pick up the sword and fight after living in peace and comfort for years.....