Nowhere

Recently as I browse through the job classified online, I noticed that there are alot of jobs out there which are suitable for me but what I am lacking is the 'paper'. I have to admit its very difficult for me to move on to non-executive position after where I am now. I have all the experience required but don't have the education level required.... Haiz......

What do I call my situation? I am somewhere between heaven & earth... Heaven & Earth?? Mm... sound so familiar..... Do I really have to go back to school at this age?? I don't think I can afford the time to do so though I really don't mind if I am sponsored.

In the first place why am I looking for a job? Am I not happy with the salary, the job scope or the environment?? I can't answer this too, maybe its because I can't find any sense of achievement anymore.... I still take pride in my job but the drive level is low nowadays....

Today I talked to one of my guys about finding the motivation to work other than just about bonus. I guess I could understand his thinking as I gone through that too. I felt that I worked very hard or at least equally hard as compared to other engineers but in the end I was not promoted. At that time, I felt very disappointed & was even unhappy with some of the engineers who were promoted but then I changed my perception, I told myself that people do recognise & appreciate my work but its impossible for everyone to be top so why should I be angry when others get it, at least I am not at the bottom? I started to find other motivation which keeps me going and I felt alot better. The situation didn't change, the environment didn't change, what changed was my thinking which changed my mood. I guess most of the time, we are very much affected by our perception than by the truth.....