Starting fresh

This afternoon as I was resting in the office, I started to think of the days when I was an engineering assistant... How time files... Its been 3 years since I first stepped into this company.. from a nobody to somebody... at least it shows that hard work do pay off. I wonder if I have the strength to do it all over again if I were to start off fresh again somewhere....

I just sent out an application for the post of senior equipment engineer but wasn't really comfortable with it. So many 'what if' in my head.... Am I really up to the job? What if I find that I am not suitable, there will be no turning back.... I can't get back my current job for sure.... I am not sure if I am doing the right thing or not... anyway just wait to see if there is any reply before worrying. Maybe I might not even get a reply for an interview.

Come to think of it, I should have applied for engineer instead of senior engineer... at least not that stress.... oh shit... I applied for senior engineer but I only indicate 3k for my basic... haiz... so stupid.... hope they will offer me a higher pay for that post.....