Who moved my cheeze

2 more days to Lunar New Year.. it has been a challenging and fruitful year. I still remember when I returned to work from Lunar New Year holiday last year, a few of my assistants resigned at the same time. It was tough for me to lose them at the same time but together with those who stayed on, we worked together and got the group back in shape and even better than before. It was tough as we had more to do with less people still we make it....
Come to think of it, it was a good thing that they left... This may sound cruel but whenever a major change is to be made, some of those who fail to comply must be eliminated.

In the begining of this year, I am already faced with a major decision that could change my life.... I have to choose between staying on in this company or to try out as salesman in a small local company which my mentor set up 2 years ago. If I choose to stay on, I will have my annual increment next month & most probably with promotion but then my life would be quite predictable.. working for others till I retire, then again if I choose to try out in sales, I might be able to start my own company someday after possessing the skill and contact. But then again if I fail, there is no turning back.....

A few months back, my mentor offered me 2 million to start a buiness.... 2 MILLION!!! When will I ever get to earn this sum of money? I rejected his offer as I knew that I lack of something very important.... the art of selling. My bonus for this year come close to 10k, it seems alot of money but then is it really alot? I am not sure if I am cut out to be in the sales lines as I am pretty bad at public relation... But my mentor told me that if I want to start my own business someday, I have to overcome the fear of doing sales... Should I stay at this comfort level or move on with no return..... There is a saying in chinese which translate as 'break the oar & sink the boat' meaning put yourself in a position where you have no choice but to fight & move forward. This phase originated from the acient time during war where a general instructed his soldiers to break the oars and sink the boats when they landed on enemy ground. The only way for them to survive is to fight and win the war.

If I can make it in this new industry & discover an opportunity, my mentor will provide me with all the capital I require to start my own business but he will never provide me with money to get on my life. He will only give me the tools to hunt but not the food. I have to hunt on my own to survive.

I love my job but this path do not lead me to the life I want. Of course moving on to a new career does not garantee anything too but the chance is there. If I let go this opportunity, I might regret in years to come, if I failed, I might also regret for giving up such a good job which I have now to go into the new career.... But then if I don't let go of the old cheeze to source for a new cheeze, how do I know that there are bigger cheeze out there. But then again if I let go of this cheeze I am having now and failed to find any cheeze out there, I will end up with nothing.... Sight.... just enjoy this Lunar New Year and decide that.