Expiry date

In another few hours, I will be on the plane to Taiwan, Taipei. I remember how my ex used to have a checklist whenever I am assigned to Indonesia or Australia in the past. She would prepare the list few days before and start buying the stuff required. Its always end up with so many items that I could hardly squeeze into my suitcase.

This time while I am packing it myself, I couldn't even fill up half the space. Except for my passport and laptop, I can't think of anything else to bring along. Maybe I don't even need a suitcase.... Guess I will just throw in a few t-shirts and and a pair of jeans.

6 months ago when I was going to Malaysia with J, I was so excited about it even thought I had been there a couple of times before. This time, I can't seems to feel the excitement growing in me. Maybe I have lost the sense of feel after all these while of working and drinking. Nothing excites me, surprises me or even spoil my day. I just go through motion day after day. Something seems to be missing from my life. Its the heart, I left it with her and she broke it the day she left.... I asked my J in the past what woud she buy me for birthday? Her answer was 'I am your present' Guess she forgot to add in the timeframe.

I suddenly realised that everything on earth had a valid date or an expiry date. As I walked into the convenience store, everything on the shelf is tagged with a expiry date. The only thing is different betwwen us human and the stuff in the convenience store is that our date are unknown but its still there. I used to asked myself this ' From the day you were born, you are destined to die. So between being alive and dead, what are we supposed to do?'

Is idling around consider wasting life or working hard consider wasting life?? Do you study hard and work hard for 40 years to prepared for the last 20 years of your life??