ZZzz..

Sigh... I am so tired and the bed is so tempting, how I wish to dive right into it and sleep... Still gotta revise my Japanese....

This morning I received an email from CT while at work. She told me that she envy me for being able to love someone so deeply... But again is that a good thing or a bad thing?? I guess its only a good thing if the other party reciprocate...

A few questions post by her keep going through my mind today. What is love, what is forever and when was the last time I felt really happy...

No one on earth is able to clearly define love. According to Oxford Dictionary, Love means deep affection or fondness. I personally feel that nothing last forever, but that doesn't mean everything will come to an end. You might have done or said something that touched someone's heart but that doesn't mean it will last forever when you did nothing for the next few years or decades. Love requires continous attention, just like a plant, you can't simply water once and expect it to grow forever. It requires you to nuture it with attention and care.

As for when was the last time I felt really happy.... It gotta be the time when J said 'I love you.' to me. I guess alot of people will find nothing special about it because when couples are together, its very common to say that but its very different because she told me she will not said it unless she mean it. So for the begining when we were together, she never said it to me before until one night she suddenly told me that. That was the happiest moment of my life. After that I don't know what happiness means anymore...