Counting down....

I don't know what got into me this afternoon that makes me start typing my resignation letter. Just as I was about to print, I took out J's photo and read the words behind. How I missed her pinching my face or pretending to slap me. I really miss you J but I guess you will never know... In the end, I deleted the resignation letter from my laptop.... I still have one last promise to keep. No matter how much I dread going to work, I still have to endure till end of the year..... Guess this is the last thing I can do for J..... Its weekend soon but I have to spend my entire Saturday back in the company doing my own testing and revise my japanese on Sunday before the exam starts..... 4 projects to complete before I can leave the company peacefully....
1. Complete setting up of new plant
2. Equipment role transfer OIS to ODT
3. To further enhance the role of Zetasizer, my last project with Ed which we worked hard to make it work (Ok CT worked hard for it too in case she read my blog and don't buy me lunch next Tuesday... I want to eat lamb chop at Botak Joe ok?)


Took a walk at the park where J, Chelsea and me went in the past. Everything about me changed, nowadays I always place a cup of water in my room before going to bed which I don't drink. I know very well J will never turn up but well....just a false hope.....

Practised on my sandbag right after I reached home. When I removed the gloves, my knuckles were covered with blood. Met up with my ex Air-force colleagues a couples of hours ago. Seeing them in their uniforms and talking about stuff happening in the base reminds me of the good time we had. Though it was much stressful than my current job but we enjoyed it at the end of the day watching the aircraft returning safely to base after mission.

Been working without my assistants for a couple of days and surprisingly, I get to learn alot of new things and I enjoyed my work. It feel like being an engineer assistant again spending my time in the cleanroom doing test. Come to think about it, I might have really pushed them too hard.... I need to face reality, I am not in the airforce anymore. Perhaps I need not be so serious working in the outside world, I had to slow down my pace than pushing others to keep up with me. How I wish I can leave my position now and start being friends with all my assistants..... expecially those whom had worked with me since I was an engineering assistant. Its ok that the new guys don't understand me. But you guys should know very well what kind of person I am. I am really very sad that you guys are treating me this way nowadays... Especially this girl whom I used to treat as my sister. She would always confide in me when she had problems be it work or personal. She even defended me when others talk behind my back but now even she turned away from me.